Wednesday, April 30, 2008
~ Leaving On A Jet Plane ~
10:29:00 pm
"Cuz I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh baby
I hate to go..."
In a just a matter of hours, I'll be flying off to somewhere... Where to?? You'll figure it out from my previous entries... *Hehe*...
Well, although there's no 'baby' for me to say goodbye to, I won't say that I hate to go cuz I know that I will enjoy myself!! *Hehe*...
So, take care peeps!!
And I know that I am still owing pictures from my brother's engagement!! Will settle that when I come back from my trip... *Winks!*
written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
Sunday, April 27, 2008
~ My Brother's Engagement ~
11:32:00 pm
Alhamdulillah, all praises to God... The engagement ceremony for my brother and his future wife-to-be went well... And
insyaAllah, the wedding will be held in a year's time...
No doubt that we are all super duper tired, but we're all thankful that everything had went smoothly...
And now, I'm going to have a good rest (although I'm working tomorrow! *SOB*) and await for the next event on my calendar... And that is.......... MY BANGKOK & PATTAYA TRIP!!! *Yippee!!*...
*Pics from the engagement will be up soon!!*
written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
Saturday, April 26, 2008
~ Tired!! ~
11:54:00 pm
I am feeling super tired now... All thanks to all those scrubbing, my arms are feeling all numb... Yes indeed, I think I need to go to the gym and start working out!! *Haha*...
Anyway... MY BROTHER IS GETTING ENGAGED TOMORROW AND I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE IT!!! *Haha*... Well, I really can't believe it... But it's great lah... Which means I can have total control of his room in a year's time, provided he already has found a flat by then... *Hehe*... Jokes aside, I am really glad that he has found the queen of his heart and I am happy to have a sister-in-law soon... =)
Okay, I need to sleep early tonight and get up reallyyyyyyyyyy early tomorrow... I don't understand why the future groom-to-be can escape from doing all the hard work... But never mind... Maybe I'll understand and know what it feels when my turn comes... *Hehe*... Just sit and be pretty... *Hahaha*...
Toodles!!!
written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
~ MC Day!! ~
11:40:00 pm
Today was Sick Leave day!! *Haha*... Okay, I am not proud of taking MCs...
So, to date, this is already my 3rd MC for the year... To think that I used to go on without taking any during my first year of service... Well, afterall, my body was still 'fresh' then, and I could withstand any type of challenges that I was facing physical and mentally... But now, with my studies as well, my body feels so 'old' and it would ache here and there, especially after my night duty...
Anyway, the reason why I took MC today was because I felt super tired, that I couldn't get out of bed... Something that I haven't felt in a very long time... Not that I chose to be in this 'sick role'... *Hehe*... But yes, the excuse I gave to the GP was, of course, fake... *Hehe*...
Enough about MCs and being sick... *Hee*...
Will be a busy period this coming week... Presentation on Thursday, my brother's engagement on Sunday... And we're not even prepared yet!! *Oh great!*...
P.S. I love the feeling of sitting on the bike... With the 'powerful' wind blowing into your face................. Nice...
written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
Friday, April 18, 2008
~ Farewell to Evelyn ~
10:38:00 pm
Today was Evelyn's last day working in the ward with us... And from Monday onwards, she will be joining the Palliative team as a, well, Palliative Nurse...
It was nice, getting 'reunited' again as colleagues after more than 2 years, although the 'reunion' was short-lived, which was only for 6 months... Nonetheless, I am thankful for being given the chance to work with her again for this short period of time...
And I am thankful for having her around during those periods in time, for she was the first person to have spotted that I was feeling troubled, down and emotional...
To Evelyn,
It's been a wonderful 6 months, getting to work with you again after a long period of time... Thank you for being there for me throughout the period when I truly needed someone to rely on... I can never thank you enough... I wish you all the best in your new 'job' and environment... Jia you!!~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
On the other hand, it's been 3 weeks now... Let's just say that I am doing quite well, although there were times when I felt quite helpless... But when I felt that way, I would usually divert my attention to something else... And yes, divertional therapy, it helps...
For now, I'm gonna keep moving on and moving forward... Cuz that's the only way to go!! =)
written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
~ Dreams or Nightmare? ~
11:22:00 pm
There's a Malay saying that goes, "
Mimpi itu adalah permainan tidur"... In direct translation, it means that dreams are "sleep's play"... Or to make it sound better, it is actually the work of our sleep...
But to me, I believe that dreams, or even nightmares, are results of our subconscious mind... Whatever we thought or felt while we were awake, and when we suppress them into our deepest and inner most mind, it shows during our sleep as a form of dream or nightmare...
Just again yesterday, I dreamt about him, my ex-boyfriend... Yes, I admit, I was pre-occupied over something that I read over some sources, just before I slept... I went to bed with my mind filled with much thoughts and emotions, that it showed in my dreamland... And it didn't happen just once, but twice, within the same night... And to count for it, this is the second time it happened to me, having dreamt about him a few nights ago...
Maybe I have been suppressing too much of my feelings when I am awake... And instead, it appeared to me when I'm asleep... And if this goes on much longer, I will never have a peaceful sleep... And my dreams will soon turn into nightmares...
*Sigh*... Why is it so hard to get over someone? And worse, why does he have to appear in my dreams? I'd rather have a dreamless night than to have him appear in my dreams, over and over again...
written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
11:52:00 pm
Maybe, in your eyes, I am just meant to be second best...
written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
Monday, April 14, 2008
~ End of 4 Night Duty ~
2:16:00 pm
So... For the past two solid months, I had not done any single night duty... And now, I have survived, not 3, but 4 days of horrendous night shifts!!
This is my first time ever in my nursing career, having to do 4 days of night duty, instead of the usual 3 days... Well, of course, the most appealing factors were the 3 day offs (1 Sleeping Day and 2 Day Off) and the allowance money factor ($$ - *Ka-ching, ka-ching*)... But I was just so 'flat' by the 4th night that I could hardly keep my eyes open... And thank goodness I was doing junior work instead of the Staff Nurse role...
Now, I can truly understand how those on permanent night shift feels... Thank God I'm not on permanent night duty!! Well, I wouldn't want to anyway, not in this current ward...
Anyway, classes are starting again today... This will be the last module for my Semester 3... Which means that after this, I'm left with just one more semester to go before I unofficially graduate... Wow, I really can't believe that I will be reaching the final stage in just a matter of months... And I'm just months away before I obtain a new certificate in my life... My degree... But provided, I must not flunk any modules lah!! *Hehe*...
Well, the only thing that I hope now is that I don't fall asleep during class!! *Haha*... Cuz I've only slept for 3 hours! *Tsk tsk*... Well, I just couldn't sleep!! To think that I was super sleepy in the middle of the night at work...
As for my life, well, I 'fell' into the loophole again... But I admit that this is my fault... For a week, I've endured... I don't understand how I could have destroyed my determination just with a snap... And now, I have to built this determination again, from scratch... But I am determined not to destroy it... And if I feel that I can't control it, I know who to find now cuz that particular person will help to BRAINWASH me... *Haha*...
But at least, there are things for me to look forward for... My brother's engagement on the 29th of April... AND... My Bangkok/Pattaya Trip on the 1st of May!!! *Oh yeah!!*
written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
Thursday, April 10, 2008
~ It's been 2 weeks... ~
5:47:00 pm
I've suddenly lost the momentum to keep this blog going... But then again, I felt that it wasn't fair... So, yes, I'm gonna keep it going...
It's been 2 weeks...
Been trying my very best to put my life back in place... And I am still as 'fragile', still on the mending road... A very rocky mending road... Cuz there were a couple of times when I kept falling back into the loophole... But each time I do, I tell myself that I would have to stand up again and keep it moving... No, it wasn't easy... Nobody told me that it would be easy... Everyone said that it would take lots of time... It's just how fast or slow I want it to be...
For now, I am learning to do things one day at a time... Learn how to be strong and look forward for things to come, instead of getting stuck in the past... It is true that I still feel the hurt and the pain, only time will heal all wounds even though the scar would still be there...
On and off, I would still shed tears although at the end of it, I would feel so silly... But sometimes, I guess that I just couldn't help it...
I'm lucky to be surrounded by a group of caring friends, who made sure that I would be okay... But at the end of the day, it is still up to me to decide what I should be doing...
written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
